how do i deal with this?

i have now googled and read every story online about how every pregnant woman on the face of the earth just knew what she was having (and was either right or wrong).  as my ob says (who say it's a girl--- not scientifically proven yet), she's got a 50-50 shot on guessing it right.

me on the other hand.  i have NO CLUE.  none.  i don't know if there is a boy in there or a girl.  i am not having dreams about holding my sweet baby ____.  on the one hand, i could be having a boy because there aren't any girls born in t's family.  on the other hand, i could be having a girl because god is funny and has a sense of humor and knows this would smite me for oh so much. 

so in the mean time, this is driving me bonkers.  i won't find out until december and there is a chance we won't find out.  i want to know.  i need to know.  this is probably one of the things that is driving me nuts.  terribly.  i am not stressed about the birth or the after.... i am calm about that.  nope.  i need to know what IT is... any guesses? i'm sure someone will be right.